Blue Diary

今天下午五点半，答辩准时开始。

大学里的最后一个成绩，也算是最后一门考试吧。

有点紧张，不过听说很容易的。

12个人答辩，我排在第三个。

先是5分钟左右陈述自己论文主要观点，然后老师问两个问题，准备几分钟，回来回答。其实老师提的第二个问题的第三小问，我不太会回答，于是我在回答第二小问的时候故意多说了一些，然后又引申了一下，说了一些更理论的东西（其实观点都是看来的），主要是为了把老师说得很信服，我边说，老师边点头，很赞同，哈哈，我趁老师还沉浸在对我观点的赞成里的时候，结束回答。

看来这招挺好使的～推荐使用……

考完了试，一下子有点不知道何去何从。想休息几天，却也不想松散下来。这个年纪是该到外面去打拼的年纪，但我却没有那个心态。那天大学同学吃散伙饭时，男生酒喝得厉害也就罢了，一些女生也跟着喝，大声说话大口喝酒，甚至还有喝交杯酒的，也许很豪爽吧？我一直和几个女生坐在旁边看，我有点寒寒的感觉，难道这样的状态就是长大了吗，难道这样的状态就是走向社会以后的必然吗？所以，我有一种社会恐惧症了。

现在想想，真是上学的时候最幸福了，什么都不用想，一心一意读好书就好了，可是长大以后呢，走上社会以后呢？不仅要做好工作，还要面对形形色色的人，处理各种各样的琐事，还有种种奇怪的“社会潜规则”……这些是我所鄙夷的，不想涉足的，所以我害怕走向社会。

这么说也许会得罪很多的社会人，我想大多数人并不是真想去遵守那些“潜规则”，但被逼无奈，为了生存而已。

有的时候路过一些寺庙，我就在想，也许只有这里的人才能脱离世俗的纷扰？有点羡慕了。有时候觉得这样做一个大人，好累～～不想干了～～

A girl would turn her cell phone off and put it by her photo on the desk every night before going to bed. This habit has been with her ever since she bought the phone.

The girl had a very close boyfriend. When they couldn't meet, they would either call or send messages to each other. They both liked this type of communication.

One night, the boy really missed the girl. When he callded her, however, the girl's cell phone was off because she was already asleep. The next day, the boy asked the girl to leave her cell phone on at night because when he needed to find her and could not, he would be worried.

From that day forth, the girl began a new habit. Her cell phone never shuts down at night. Because she was afraid that she might not be able to hear the phone ring in her sleep, she tried to stay very alert. As days passed, she became thinner and thinner. Slowly, a gap began to form between them.

The girl wanted to revive their relationship. On one night, she called the boy. However what she got was a sweet female voice:" Sorry, the subscriber you dailed is power off."

The girl knew that her love has just been turned off.

After a long time, the girl has a new love. No matter how well they got along, the girl however refused to get married. In the girl's heart, she always remembered that boy's words and the night when that phone was power off. The girl still keeps the habit of leaving her cell phone on all throughout the night, but not expecting that it'll ring.

One night, the girl caught ill. In moment of fluster, instead of calling her parents, she dailed the new boy's cell phone. The boy was already asleep but his cell phone was still on.

Later, the girl asked the boy:" Why don't you turn your cell phone off at night?" The boy answered:" I'm afraid that if you need anything at night and aren't able to fine me, you'll worry." The girl finally married the boy.

Later at night, do you turn off your cell phone?

复习了那么久的日子，明天就要考试了，感觉不像是上考场而是上战场，一直对托福有些心存余悸。我以前中考高考乐着就过来了，一点都不紧张，人家看我都像是去玩而不是去考试；可是不知道为什么，对于托福，我还是很紧张。

今天一天都不知道做了什么，心里就像揣一个小兔子一样，一直不能稳定下来，很浮躁，也很烦。盼着赶快考完就解放了，但又怕考不好希望能再有几天时间复习就好了～～唉～～～

吃完晚饭，我做了最后一套语法题，也是怀着那种忐忑的感觉做的题，但结果却是全对了～～从来没有过的好成绩。我知道也许是这套题比较简单吧，但我不会那么想啊，我只会认为是我自己的水平高了，呵呵～～这对于稳定今晚的思想，确立明天的信心很有帮助的～

嗯，最后一段，写一些祝福自己的话吧，希望明天可以顺利地考完试，希望自己可以发挥正常（当然，最好超水平发挥，这事我也不是没干过，呵呵），希望自己可以考到自己的目标成绩。对了，顺便祝福一下我在“太傻”论坛里遇到的所有的朋友，是你们在临考试的时候给了我帮助和鼓励，谢谢你们，还要祝福和我一起考5T的朋友，大家一起复习一起努力互相鼓励走过这段日子，谢谢你们的陪伴，祝福你们也能考得自己理想的分数～～～朋友们，让我们昂起头，向ETS挑战吧！！！！！

我原本不爱他，我爱的只是一件外套，一件白马王子的外套，然后我看到了他，我就把这件外套披在了他的身上，不管是否合适。

我一直爱的是这件外套，是这件外套给我带来的那种灿烂的感觉，而不是他这个真实的人。

也许我们追求的仅仅是“爱情”这两个极为浪漫的字眼，而我们所钟爱的也仅仅是一朵简单的带刺的玫瑰而已。别无其他，真的是别无其他……